i'm left all alone in my thoughts and i suddenly recall this battle within me. struggling. contemplating. a few months back, i felt a small lump in my left breast. i only do random checks as i believed that not having been gifted with an abundant bosom, i have lower risk of tumors, lumps or even that big C. crooked thought right?! hahaha anyways, i was puzzled and a bit alarmed of what it might be. i talked to a friend with a similar situation. she told me to wait for a few weeks after i had my period and check again. i did. but it's still there. i kept on monitoring it. still the same size, i guess. same location. i think that should still be fine right. time went on. 5 months passed. my cousin told me to have it checked. im just too scared. it doesn't seem to grow or change anyways. maybe in time. i just hope and pray that it's nothing that cannot be cured. else, i think my guardian angel should just throw a brick at me, show himself and drag me to the doctor. hahaha
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Saturday, July 16, 2011
it's been how many months and here's my published post... finally! haha i realized i have quite a number of drafts. i started.. but never get to finish. moving on, im irritated at the moment coz i have this 'stalker moment' again! jeez! i dont know if i should be flattered or not.. but deym! if they only look as good as lee min ho or park shi hoo... you would NOT hear me complain! hahaha (talk about discrimination!) on with the story..
Thursday, April 28, 2011
im feeling low just thinking that my vacay days are coming to an end. this means leaving pinas and going back to HK. :( if money is not an issue and i have work back home i wouldn't leave. well, i guess that's the situation for most people going abroad. sigh. i dont know if it's just because im on a break so i like my lifestyle here.. or what. but i just feel more relaxed and i can communicate better with more people. i miss having that stable support foundation - that outside work, i know i can talk to friends, spend time with family. it feels good to hangout with my younger cousins. they were sooo young then, but now, they handle drinks wayyyy stronger than i could. seriously. hhahaha i guess i grew out of it, as one friend said. let the young ones have fun. i had my time. it feels good to just reach out to them despite our big age difference. i would like to imbibe some good vibes to them given much more time. but i guess, this is enough for now.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
one of my many few LSS. playing over and over in my ipod and in my mind:
1) looove the song (it's by kara dioguardi, ex american idol judge)
2) looove zachary levi - didnt realize he's geeky cute and talented. so i sought him out...he stars in the series Chuck and sang the theme (with Mandy Moore) song of Tangled. very nice. haha
Monday, February 21, 2011
i should be forcing myself to sleep. had barely 4 hours last night. nothing very specific in my mind. but i guess the looming event in my life is taking its toll. just when everything should've been right on schedule, unplanned circumstances just pop out. timing is key, i should say. i could stay up all night again, but can i really decide? darn! i feel so unprincipled, weak, fickle-minded! so far, 2 of my 3 consideration points were being "discussed". i'll know in a couple of hours. gahh, here i am, beating the clock again! pati ba naman sa resignation, me pressure?! i feel like im flying 2 equally built kites. i can't hold on to both. i have to let go of one. it's just convenient to have a lot of options, but when they turn you gaga, it's no good.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
im quite confused lately. why am i having second thoughts about leaving? ive thought long and hard about this decision and suddenly, a few days before my impending leave, here i am, thinking twice. fact is, i have nowhere definite to go. all i know is i want to recharge first. arrange a few personal matters while looking for a job in a company that i would hopefully retire in. that's me planning long-term. 2 offers are presented to me now. both in the same group of companies. job responsibilities-wise, they seem to fit the direction i want to go to. that's just the basic consideration. others have to be agreed on, still like compensation (very important ar). my other factor is, i want to be home for mama's bday. meaning, i can only start to work again in hk by May. i dont know if this is ok with the boss. im still gathering my options but i should be deciding soon. if all else fails though, i will stick to my original plan.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
here i am... still savoring that moment.. lovely. rewind. had i brief quality time with my kras. love love love!
Monday, February 14, 2011
happy hearts' day ALL! and im celebrating it with Janet! wuhoo! it's my first (and probably the last?) time im going to watch a concert here in HK. venue is in HKCEC. first time to go inside too. im just completely in awe at how huget the place is! haha i just go there in the area to tour my visiting friends , near the bauhinia square and watch the fireworks during CNY. inside, HKCEC though, it's really huge. there are a LOT of function rooms, restaurants, halls where concerts/shows can be held simultaneously. as you see, i can't seem to move on yet , venue pa lang. hahahaha
Monday, September 20, 2010
eeeeekkk! visited Chico and Delamar in their studio in ortigas. i have been wanting to meet them every time i go home. i just have this difficulty of waking up early especially when in vacay mode. it's just not my style. haha well, for chico and del, i would, i guess.
Friday, August 27, 2010
it's just all over the news and you can't get by without hearing or watching about it. i was back in pinas when this happened. i didnt know about it until the evening when things turned for the worse. i left for hongkong the day after in the midst of the black travel warning of HK govt to the philippines. on board PAL's delayed flight, i headed straight to the immigration area and easily got through. after baggage claim, i headed to the green lane (no items to declare) but was immediately asked by the officers for another baggage check. it was random, i suppose. i didnt see any one checked before me. didnt bother to look back if there were others who were checked too. i didnt mind coz i had nothing to be afraid of. i took it as a security measure. however, some pinoys became hesitant to travel in HK coz of discrimination which may occur.
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
is lan kwai fong having a face lift? it's been a while since i last went there. i read about the upcoming changes esp with the rumored addition of Hard Rock Cafe. to my dismay though, the cavern, hongkong brewery and finds will find its way out of the swanky nightlife hotspot.
Friday, August 13, 2010
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
i wish HKO would just announce this type of warning earlier. like, during office hours, right? or maybe in the next day morning, so we don't have to go to work? hahaha typhoon signals in hongkong are classified by wind speed. there are 3 levels: 1, 3, 8; while 9 and 10 are still possible, they are seldom hoisted. rainstorm warnings are identified by amount of rainfall and are issued based on colors: amber, red, black. more often than not, hko weather forecasts are almost accurate. that's why i always check on the site, www.hko.gov.hk/contente.htm, for the latest update. may it be on the latest outside temperature or the 7-days forecast, i rely on the site for such information.